i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

this few days was like at home la.
boring life.
i guess.

today have accounting EXAM. ca2.
kinda difficult sia.
section B consists of 30 marks.
which teacher nv teach before de.

den be4 tat they was suaning me.
tat i got 48/50 for my PTX.
yawns.
~!!

say i nv go sch gt so high.
they go sch everytime.
some fail lor.
not i m proud lars.
=x

hehes.

today is the 3rd week we separated ler.
i kinda miss him bah.
nvm.
nobody realli understand what i wan actualli..

i just wan him.
just him.
no1 else.
u should noe hu i m refering to.

so dun bothers to talk to me.

my hope is to spend valentine day wif him.
but guess it will never come true.
guess this yr gonna be alone ler.

HAIS.
sad.

what m i g0nna do.
THINK THINK THINK.
i just wanna see him.

he happy n i will be happy bah.
guess so.

hais.

anyway.

and show you guys a LAME picture taken by me today.

its the AUNTIE LOH.

TAKE CARE.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 10:15 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

its SUNDAY TIME.

this few days go work i think so.
fri nv g0 sch.
went to work.
hahas.

den sat.
went to work.
after tat kellie ask me go dxo.
den work till 10pm.
go home change den took mrt down.

damn lots of ppl dere sia.
den managed to CUT queue lar.

went wif kellie,xiaoqiang,jordon & his fren bah.
LOLS.

den they open a bottle of chivas.
exPENSIVE sia. 180bucks.
LOLS.

i pay onli 12 bucks.

lols.
=))
drink abit bah.
den dance dance dance.
like sauna lar.
sweat like MAD.

llols. =))

den saw nick there.
thought vernon got go.
n tat why i g0.
LOLS.

but too bad.
nvm.

hahas.

i dream of him again.
den was like i was able to be wif him again.
but in real life.
i guess it wun happen de.

hais..

i rather slp n dun wake up.
hahas.

I MISS HIM.

phew~!!!

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 9:31 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

sorry to make you so detest of me.

i noe you might be reading this.

thanks for the 1 mths+ getting along with you.
thanks for the love you gave me.
thanks for letting me together wif you.
i realli appreciate it.
although it is the past ler.

maybe still got change or not.
lets the fate decide bah.

once again, thanks 4 everything you gave me.
the happiness, the joy, saddness n everything.
the fun we had.
the things we shared.
the quarreling n stuff.
i m stubborn.
thanks for letting me win always.
smiles. =)

although you are very unhappy wif me.
i m realli touched by everything.

you take cab-ed down all the way from pasir ris down to jurong just to have supper wif me.
thanks.
REALLI THANKS.
thanks for spending time wif me on my bdae, xmas & countdown.

i realli realli appreciate.

just hope tat you will nort forget it.

i will still love you.
no matter wat.
yaps.

when you are happy tat mean i m happy.
when you are sad tat mean i m sad.

hope to share everything wif you once again.
i guess it will nv happen again.

SOB.

thanks ya.

take care.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 12:39 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

went to sch ytd.
had ptx exam.
last min study.
i guess i can pass bah.

smiles.
den went to work as usual.

cant sleep ytd.
waiting for my dear to reply.
but i call his hse phone.
like spoilt sia.
his open nv switch on.
no reply n eveerything.

make me so worry.
den now also nv switch on phone.

today i nv go sch.
hais..
should i CONTINUE my studies?
just without him,, i cant carry on leii.
i duno why.

HELP ME.

i needa him by my side to encourage me.
hais.

later going work again.

i noe you are reading this.

i jus wanna ggo out wif u.
1 week c u 1 time.
n tat enough for me.

hao mahs?

thankiew.

take care.

bye.

someone who i dun wanna LOSE in this world is :

VERNON ONG QI JUN.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 12:50 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

my moods changes again.

hais.

i noe all this is just a passerby of my life.
he treat me so cold.
he shall nt be bothers with everything i say.
i guess.

i m nothing.
useless.
i m just a useless BITCH.
waitin for a IDIOT.

hais.

actualli starting to change of me.
i dunch noe why.

i started to clean my room.
n everything.
study.

hais.

FUCKED UP.
what gonna happen again.

he ignoring me now.
HAIS.
what realli happen.

maybe i should not appear at the beginning.
i should nort have g0 n noe you.
nothing will happen now.

all is my fault.
SORRY.
hais.

everything is just a HURT N PAIN.
arghhhh..

i tell my mind each day tat.
i can onli think of you instead.

but i cant have you.

telling myself tat you are always wif me.

now i realli duno.

tears falling.

FUCKED.
m i wrong to be in this WORLD?
maybe bah =(

hais.

i just need some1 to be wif ME.
just him.
i realli hope he will be my guardian ANGEL protecting me from everything.

HAIS.

SAD.

i onli wan VERNON ONG.
no1 else.
kill or take up my life.
hais. =(

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 12:56 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

hi.

did nort went to sch today.
headache.

hais.~!!

what happen to me.
why everybody talk to me.
i was like.
i duno.

i just need him.
the more i think, the more i want him.
hais.

maybe he a v.gd fren to somebody.
but sucks at being a bf.

but during tat time of period.
he realli treat me damn good lars.

i dun0.
he needs time.
i will give.

slowly bah.
maybe time will heal everything.
but its doesnt seem to be working on me.
yaps.

each time i saw him.
i rather feel like so happy.
hais.

take care.

HAIS.

life simply SUCKS.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 2:49 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

thurs nv go sch.
overslept.
smiles.

anyway,,

HAPPY BDAE MY DIDI, MAK.

smiles.

nothing to do.
so went to work bah.
boring.
kinda slack.

i miss my dearr..
its raining.
so must take gd care of urself.
dun make me worry.

waiting for you.

--------------------------------------------------

each day just passes liddat.
boring life.
boring day for me.
exams coming soon.
but i dun realli bothers.
no mood.

i just dunch noe why.
i just need him to say the 3 words.
maybe i will start everything.
maybe i will have the mood.

HAIS.

just living in the world of my own.

year 2007 realli sucks.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 1:05 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

its like early in the morning i blog lar.
yawns~!

actualli wanna go sch.
but was like enhui call me in e morning to wake me up.
hais.
~!!

now beri jin shen sia.
duno why.

just bathe finish.
waiting for xianhui.

anyways.
its the 10th jan ler.

happy 2 mth anniversary my darling.
if i m still wif youu lars.
how i wish we can be everlasting.

smiles.

i just simply love you.
pls dun push me to some1 else.
n i wun push you to other gers too.

kkae?

waiting for you.

smiles.

ahxin MISSES ahyue.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 9:23 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

hello.

ytd went to work den after tat went to amk find alex.
nth to do mahs.
hais.
his fren bdae i guess.

den aftert tat drink quite a bit.
drank martell,chivas,red wine,baron and etc.

was kinda canort make it.
but mind is clear.

sry alex,, i kept cryin.
cos i miss him too much.

yaps.
and thanks for takin care of me.
smiles.

den nv went home.

den just nw eat ler.
den play-ed pool & billard.
den he send me home.

thanks.

to: my dear vernon.

sorry tat i break my promise to you tat i did not went home.
cos i cant stand properly.
drank quite alot.

no next time ler.
i know you dun like it.
okays?

the most i go where, i will be truthful to you.
waiting for you.
smiles.

and i noe what i am doing to myself.
just kinda sad and hurt of you leaving me.
yaps.
so i duno.
i just wana get back to you.
smiles.

take care.
i go zzz.
so tired.
this few days nv slp properly.

tml start sch ler.

yaps.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 10:20 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

i just reach home.
from pasir ris park bah.
nv slp bah.

ytd went out wif alex.
go find him after work.
nth to do.

but thanks alex for pei me when i m realli not in a great mood.
thanks my fren.

alex brought me to pasir ris park.
i meet vernon dere.

wanted to c sunrise.
but nv.

to: vernon
sorryy..
realli sorryy..
sorry to make u like so irrated.
sorry to doubt you & everything.
didnt mean to cry.
but alrights.
n sorry for you getting so many mosquito bites.

thanks for the hug.
i realli appreciate tat.
i still love you.
but alrights.

its doesnt matter you still love me anort.
i will wait for you.
5 years.
tat what you say.
shall stay single.
i saw the msg u send to ur fren.
yaps.

i noe u dun miss me at all.
cos i m ugly & fat.
hahas.

smiles.

i wanna meet you on valentine day.
maybe sunday will be the last time i c you for this month.
wanna change myself to another person.
i wanna start anew.

i wanna gone missing for 1 mth.
hahas.

i will do well in my studies.
i wanna become thin.
i wan lose weight.
so everyday will onli eat fruits.
no other things.
thanks you my little boy for giving me so much stress.

maybe we dun click well,
cos we duno each other well.
we onli noe each other less than 1 mth den we be together ler.

so,, lets just noe each other well 1st.
kkae.
my love for you will never changed.

mayb its impossible for now.
i guess.
for later on,, we shall see.

miss you.

but hope if i miss you,, you will come out.
hehes =))
hope you will automatic sms me.
smiles.
if you dun wanna, its alright.
den dun contact each other.

hope your promise to me will be real.
yaps.
dun smoke too much & dun drink too much.
okays?

i wanna go zzz ler.

love ya.

SHALL LOVE YOU FOREVA. MEANT IT FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 9:48 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

went to j8 wif xian.
den meet alex there.

yaps.
den went lau pa sat find melvin kor.
yaps.
chatted alot.
thanks aniway for pei me.

after tat alex send me back to jurong.
cos he nid go back camp.

but i dun wanna go home.
so he pei me bah.

thanks so much.
thanks for being there when i need you as my fren.
smiles.

kk.
gd nights.

so TIRED.

ytd nv slp.

i have my own thinking ler.

guys nid space ya.
me too.

but i can onli miss n love you in my heart.
i hope you can feel it can ler.

nid the chance once more.
cos we are meant to be together.
smiles.

i wanna spend my every occassion wif you.
giving you the rest of my life.

yeah.

nights..

blog tml.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 3:28 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

crying now.

no use.
no point.

chatted wif dearr just now.
i still regard him as my bf.

but he dun1.

sorry.
sorry.

i duno what went wrong.

i respect your decision.

i will still stay my promise n wait for you.

shall nt like ani guys.

give u 1 mth+ to think.

wanna get back to u.

tat it.

i just hope tat.

i wanna quit sch i guess.
no point studying.
no mood.

dun have the feel to study.
i noe i will regret.
but i dun1.

i duno why.
i nid love from you.
tat it.

nth.
i wan happiness.

guess not in a gd mood for this few days.
yaps.

leave me.
back to single life again.
but single but not available.

wat i wan.
i dun wanna face the world.
i dun wanna face my fren, relatives & every1.

i cant slp.
i onli think of him.
i just wanna c him.
tat it.

hope to see him asap.
i wanna hug u.

a beri tight hug.
n i shall remember it foreva.

take care.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 4:01 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

heys.

realli no mood.
went out just now.
went bbdc to take the car thingy.
damn ex.
after tat went to town wif xian for interview thingy.
den meet alex.
den now den reach home.

took cab home.

cried in the cab.

suddenly thinking of something.

to vernon,

are you avoiding me?
if you are, just tell me.
i will get off of ur sight immediately.

you realli duno how i feel bah.
damn hurt & realli hurt.

you dun even bothers abt me.
still can chat wif other gers.
happily.

i m just thinking.
m i realli not impt to you.
just tell me.

you said you are not toying me.
but what i get in the end.

you tell me.

i dun think there anithing wrong wif our relationship.
why wanna separate?

hais.

as i haf said.

i realli wanna chat wif you.
when you stress.
i will be more stress.
i rather you tell me what you stress abt.
i m ur gf, yet everything i dunch noe.
you rather told a stranger than me.
what m i to you?

i realli miss you damn lots.

why m i crying here.
no point i guess.

you are just happily playing wif your fren.

if you said you dun love me animore.
i will let you go.
you just tell me can ler.
i dun wanna hide here & there.
i will just disappear from ur sight.
wun contact you animore.

you just tell me tat can ler.

i m damn hurt.

tat why i dun wanna go home n face the walls.
damn lonely.
sad.

fucked up life i have.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 2:12 AM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

i swear this will be a bad year for me.

ya.

hais.
i guess i m a relationship failure bah.
hais.

i noe you will read this.
i dun wanna separate wif you.
you should noe what i mean.
i dun wan the word from you is sorry.
but instead of i love you.

i dun wanna be alone.
as what i say.
i rather we be enemies or you be my bf.
i dun wanna be gd fren wif you.
i rather you hate me.
i noe i m stubborn.
i noe i m childish.

from the day i noe you,,
everything in my life started to change.
when i wanna be wif you, mean i wanna.
till the day i die.

as i say,, you be the last person i love.
i cant take ani pains ler.

i have take it 2nd time ler.
no more 3rd time.

hais.

i noe i dunch noe you well.
i duno.

i realli duno.

why m i living in this world wif full of pain.
what i just wan.
is a happiness.

pls take me away.
i m damn painful.

sorry everyone,, once again. i didnt mean to be de.

CRIES. =((

sorry. i dun1 the word sorry.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh.

bye.

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 11:38 PM

i choosen to love you more & more each day~

happy new year.

hope my wish will come true yeah =))

aniway,,

the qns is : should i or should i nort?

HAIS =((

Y因为很爱你，所以不想放弃。我爱你笨笨.

* she ain't ~~emo~~. this are just mere her words of expressing herself.

* { she loves walking in the RAIN cos nobody noes she's ~~CRYING~~.

roarrs @ 2:32 AM